The past. (:

Wednesday, October 1, 2008 @ 11:14 PM

1st day beraye.(:

FERST DAY OF RAYE. WEAR BROWN(:

my shadow with bunga api(:

kak fikah, last long with your boy then. you've changed alot. and i want the old kak fikah i've known.):

faisal bby, the guy who love me before, bt i never accept. the bestie cuzzie who always cheer me up with his jokes. he dunt ever dumb me before and we never even fight before.ily(:

aideel, the guy who love me before too and obviously my ans is NO. he change,he smoke, he drink, he take drug, he change alot. ):

kak nurul, the sweetest cuzzie, who mature enuf to always advice me about boys & love.(:

harissa kristina, ily(:

sakinah camelia.ily(:

yeah people, i've ask for my parents forgiveness about my attitude, my stupid behaviour and all i've done that make my parents hurt and get angry. at last , i wanna be the new liya. can ?

when to my grandma house, saw all my cuzzie.

aideel came towards me and ask me to follow hym go down slack and i did. he wanted to give me cigarette and i say "da stop ar" he laugh and say "kaw jgn step nk stop rkk ar. menyampah siol" i smile and keep quiet. he ask "asl tibe2 stop?" i say "matey suro ar.lagypun aku yang nk stop." and he say "nk tkt nan matey uat apa siak ? langgar jek uhhh" hahahaha ! whatever aideel, if i say i wanna stop means i mean it. he stare me and i stare hym back. we dont know what topic we're gg to talk. he smoke infront of me and i just hack care. all i know is i wanna stop smoking. tk sentoh pun oye too rkk! sumpah !

so, i decided to go upstairs back, i've not in the mood at all to celebrate hari raya that time. i eat, i drink , i seat without talking to anyone. people ask me qn, i just talk like tk sampai 1 min. coz i really nt in the mood. looking at my phone, waiting for hym to msg me and wish us 2 monthsary. but he just dont care. wanted to cry, but i trying to keep smiling infront of everybody. how cruel would he be towards me? why must i continue this relationship if he just dont care about me ? i decided to break,seriusly.): be single is more better . is true, guys attitude are the same. idk what the hell his doing there. cuci mata ? -_- i wanna break, i wanna be single. i dont wanna cry. i wanna smile every single day. syafi, you make me hurt, we've drifted. today is our 2 monthsary and you dnt even remember. ! fuckfuckfuck ! i hate all this. and because of hym, nt in the mood for raya.):

i went inside my grandma room and take a nap. listen to jiwang songs and crying. till kak nurul came, and i wipe my tears. dont wanna let her see and ask me why. so i smile at her and ask "abg sufian mana?" she say "da masuk prison ar deq" i say "asl uh?" she say "dher harytu ge gdh nan teksi driver tros teksi driver ge call police. police check dher then dpt tawu dher angkat biji. police bagy dher probation semer tapy dher main langgar je.. tros masuk ar. da tige kaly seyy deq" i listen to that story, im crying. losing my guy, yet losing my cuzzin,abg sufian): kak nurul ask me to be patient and relax, but i cant. i just cried out loud.!):):): abg sufian, you left me again and seat inside there till 1 year ? god, im gg to miss you laaa. takecare okeyy ?): like i say people, this year raya is nt happening at all for me.):

so faisal and aideel came, we talk3 and at last faisal make me laugh.(: thnks faisal. aideel disturb me like pukimakk ! liya sabar jekk. i wanna sleep and he say "come liya, tido nan aku." and i act like i didnt heard of anything. he pull me closer to hym and i slap his face. like ewwww ! aideeel ohh aideeel, kaw mentang2 main baju, otak jangan kunek ar k !? sial tol ! liya tdo pun dher tdo sebelah liya. naseb faisal blg . cb ! -_-

at 7.30pm, i bring all my small cuzin out and we play bunga api(: fun yol !

thnks for everything cuzin, lagylagy faisal, you make me laugh whenever im with you.(:

bsk skola. mendak pe ? satu hari holiday ! cb tol !