The past. (:

Wednesday, December 17, 2008 @ 12:09 AM

aku rindu sangatsangat !):

you knw dear, its 17dec08 today & its suppose to be 1 month with you , but i knw its over.

now , im trying to smile. its better than trying to explain to someone why im sad. & yes , i regret , every word i said to make you feel special last tyme. its just that i really cant believe its over.

im sure being single now is great but i find myself dreaming about hugging you.kissing you & loving you. boyy , do you ever think about me ? do you ever cry yourself to sleep ? in the middle night when you awake , do you ever call out my name ? i knw you didnt . hais . i knw its only me missing you.

i knw you still love her. yet i still sit in my tears hoping that one day you will love me back but i knw its imposibble. i really dont know who i am without you. im currently broken. theres nothing i could ever say that could really take the pain away. im sick of the loneliness.im sick of the sadness. when will it be over ?

i got a heart full of pain . head full of stress. its hurt to see you walk away, for admit it or not , you are very important in my life. and the times & conversations we had will always be part of me. & i knw im holding onto a dream that wont come true. falling in love w you was easy but letting you go was so hard. you knw , yest msg i gave you , i promise you it will be the last msg i msg you & i promise you alr that im letting you go. but i knw im lying . yes i am. i letting you go w her & i act like i dont want you back . but i knw im hurt inside.

i knew it from the strt when im with you that one day you will leave me & leave those memories & make me hurt. dont ask if i am ok. just always knw that my smiles arent for real. i have been broken too many tymes. even though things ended , i still love you. nothings hurts more than realizing you meant everything to me but than i meant nothing to you . hais .

cheer up emiliya.

he never worth ur time anyways.

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