Monday, December 15, 2008 @ 8:56 PM
you knw i still love , i cant lie to myself. ):
sometimes you just have to smile , pretend everythings okay. hold back the tears & just walk away. all i want is for one guyto prove to me that they're not the same.true love is when you shed a tears & still want hym. its when he loves another but you still smile & say "im happy for you" but all you ever did is cry & cry. im sick of trying . im sick of crying. & yes , im smiling but im dying. tears are only words my heart can say. i was little upset when i get to know you contact with her but i laugh coz i knw she my friend.
i try to forget his name . forget his face. forget his kiss, his warm embrace. forget the love that i once knew & remember he has someone new. forget how close you once were & remember he has chosen her. forget how i memorized his walk. forget the way he use to talk. forget the things he use to say. forget his laugh , forget his grin. forget the way he held me tight. forget the tyme that went so so fast. forget the love that once be mine. forget he say he leave me never & i will always try to remember that he gone forever.
i am alone now . i am broken now. i am unsure now . i am unfixed now. i am confused now. i am anxious now. i am crushed now. i am sick now . i need you real bad , i guess.
no matter how many tymes you break my heart,i can still love you , always. i try so hard to care for you & its amazing you dont even wanna know that i really cared. like i tell you before "promises means everything & once there broken , sorry means nothing." right ?): i should have known you would play with my heart & this is how you left me. i really tot u were diffrent but your just like the rest, worthless ! ):
really , idk why i love you so much when you dont even love me back ? & i really no regrets that you are my ex. &yes , just because my eye dont shed a tears infront of you ,doesnt mean my heart dont cry. & dun think im laughing & smiling infront of you , theres nothing wrong.
im so tired of pretending at the ferst side & act everything is okay but now my tears start to shows & my smile is fading away.i guess i should standing on my own now.
im dissapointed. im empty. im crying. im hollow. im broken. im lost. im frightened. im depressed. im still in love with you.
i guess you are just a chapter in the story of my life. & a lesson to make me stronger. i really thank you because that broken heart made who i am. its always the same story, he shows me some love,i strt to think hes changed. but once again he proves me wrong, just like every others tyme. everything goes back being the same & i was so foolish to think he had changed !
i tot you were the dumb want breaking up with me but then i was the dumb want falling in love with a guy like you! i've never felt so sad ever since you broke my heart.i only wish you could see me now.so broken & apart. everywhere i go. everywhere i see , reminds me of you & me.
& now i always knew you would lie but not about the way you felt about me. i guess its my fault for trusting you. but its okay because i've learned from it. & im gonna keep on gg & live without you , i swear. kbye.
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