Tuesday, April 14, 2009 @ 11:25 PM
ex bestie boyfriend.
you guys wanna know story ? i have a friend since sec 1 , i knw hym quite long till now. he used to be my ex boyfriend before. we're very close, so close you know. when i were sec 1 , he helped me up when i have a problem with my boyfriend on that tyme. & when i've breakup with hym , his the one whu console me not to be sad. on that part , idk that he have a feelings for me coz i knw he have his gf. so i make hym like my own brother who love each other well. then , theres this day , we go for some baking places. he then tell me in the bus that he love me. i was so shocked that i keep asking hym , why me ? even i knw he have a gf. he prove to me something and he kiss me at the cheek,even my classmates saw it. and that night , he break up with his gf. idk because of what , bt i knw he confess his love again for me. so i accept hym. our relationship doing well eventhough i always spend much tyme with my friends, he still try to be patient. when this fine day , i get to knw from my close friend that his cheated on me & played tymer with another gerl , thats a same school as us. i quickly ask for a breakup & dun wish to talk to hym. & a few days past , he contact with me back & act normal. i tot that we could be friends , but he told me that he cnt forget about me & he said he broke off with that gerl alr.he asked for a patch , i didnt accept coz its hard to trust hym. he cried. he called my close friend and complain to her. so my close friend slow talk to me and tell me to accept hym back. at ferst , i dun even care when i heard his crying coz its impossible for a guy to cry for a gerl. duhh. but my close friend say its true. i was so blured & called hym back . saying sorry is the only way. so we patch up back when we are sec 2.
same thing happened again. he played tymer again , with a same gerl. i knw that gerl flirt with hym ferst , and guys are easy to get gerls flirty. so i asked hym for a breakup and tell hym that i wont ever patch up with hym anymore. a few months later , we become friends back , close friends. we share our problem together , we talked on the phone almost every day , we slack together like always & we than accept each other as brother and sister. tymes past by , when we are sec 3 , i still remember he came to my house in the morning just to slack . i still remember he called me at night and asked me to meet hym up coz he bored and i meet hym at the roofgarden and slack. we talked nonsense and stuff. i still remember he shared his love life when he dun knw whu to choose to be his gf. i helped and advise hym . ):
now , when i were sec 4 . he nt same class as me. & we drifted apart. very far apart. idk why ? but i feel like we both try to ignore each other almost everyday in school . even he tell my friend that i action this year. but idk whu change. ): i knw that when he called me , i never picked up his phone sometymes cause i busy or my pprd low. cant he just understand ? ): and we never slack like last tyme. he do his own thing & i do mine. how sad right ? actually , i dun have a heart . i dun even miss hym when we both avoid each other coz i knw his have his own life. why on earth must he stick with me everyday right ? he need freedom too. so i dun miss hym coz people always say he like to talked bad things about others.
then i found out the truth , he tell my friend that he miss me. even if he saw me outside, he act to walk like a gangster and dont care about me. but in his heart , he feel the pain when he saw me. he miss me but he dont knw hw to say. he say that he love me like his own sister. even im attached now, he still love and treasure me as his sister love. he try to talk and say sorry , somehow , but he dun knw hw to strted it. he tell my friend that he miss the memories of us last tyme , coz we used to be close enuf. he wanted to be like last tyme , but he dun knw hw to tell me or react infront of me. he feel like crying yesterday when he saw me. & today , he feel the pain when he saw me again. ohh my , when i heard all that , i cried. yes i did. idk that he have a heart to say all those things to my friend, even he refuse at my friend not to tell me. haishh. how should i react infront of you when i saw you ? i also shyy. i also have a heart. i dont knw what to say . why cant we be like last tyme , dearest friend ? isit my fault or your fault ? im sorry . yeah , i knw sorry seems to be the hardest werd to say , but im really sorry. call me soon , if you miss me , pretty please ? & remember this , i love you too , like my own brother. & i treasure you more , like my other friendships. i miss you tooo aye ? ):
