& also , thnks so much coz you have a heart to do a blog just for me, okay ? so , you say you still love me ? but me ? im confuse with my life. idk whats right & whats wrong. okay ? how many tymes must i tell you ? im not ready to be in a relationship nimore. twice ! twice you hurt me, so should i trust u ? answer me . if you cant trust me , i understand coz i have my guy friends. but you should know , they're my slacking friends, not more. isit wrong for me to otf with other guy & that guy is my own friend ? ur friend too ? i knw you treat them like your biggest enemy of all , but should i follow you and hating them too ? i cant ! coz i love them truckloads. remember that. you say you miss me ? now then you knw hw to miss a gerl you love isit ? & nw you say you regret breaking up with me. am i a doll to you ? you just cant control ur emotions & say something that never think ferst.

you ask me for a breakup just because i spend tyme with my friends more than you? come on , i treasure friends alot. coz i knw , boys come and go. so , why must i ignore them or avoid them and 24 hours be with you ? i spend the rest of my life with you last tyme. at school or even we slack. isnt it enuf for you ? what else do you want? i need to be fair with my friends too. right ? whu are you refering to that i msg "hym" ferst ? like hello ! i msg whu ? tell me. i otf with my guy friends and talk everything about you. talk how i feel. & he advise me stuff not to breakup and be patient, but then , you ask for a breakup ferst. so whus fault ? seee? now you wanna put all the blames on me ? your jealousy can control okay boy. the ferst day we patch ,you say you gonna understand me and help me forget hym, but u didnt. your controlling & jealousy make me hate your attitude more. am i a doll to you ? i ask you once again.

yes , my love are faded when you ask me for a breakup. & the next day , i get to know you like TWO OF MY BESTFRIENDS. TWO YOU KNOW ! and you say , you like one of them because of her jokes. is that an opinion or what ? come on , not only her whu have a jokes in this world. like , the others of my bestfriends dun have a jokes for you? whatever. i knw this will happen , coz i can see that you're close to her. i heck care at the ferst place coz i knw she my friend and you love only me. but now i knw the truth. & boyy , after you reading this , dun call me and said that im jealous. i just felt that you're the same as other guys out there. dun you think so? think for urself ehh.

this is nt the tyme for me to accept you back , coz i have enuf of you. maybe its sound evil to say like this , but i have a heart too. why must you force me to be with you back but my heart say i cant ? you can move on , but you dun wanna try & keep on give up. hw must you move on ? i need freedom , now & forever. why must i be with you back & you control me again? i need my freedom okayy. if this isnt work enuf , just act we dont know each other. okay ?

& boyy , its good that they wanna forget the past . its 2009 alr lah ? for what you wanna think for the past ? forget it lah . now , they slack with us alr , you should accept the fact right? just because they slack with us , you dun wanna slack with us anymore. why must you hate them ? past is past okayy ? they make you like a dog ? then i can tell them nt to bully you anymore or something ? i can see they're friendly , why cant you be like them ? why you're so anti social huh ? we give up with you not because you never slack , but because of your attitude , get that ? yes , its true , no one understand you , nt even me. idk what you want. if you hate them , must we hate them too ? must you say that i take your friends away from you ? why you put all the blames on me ? maybe its true they make you wild , but its you yourself wild what , why you must blame them ? & its because of you we break up , why you must put the blames on them ? they're innocent. they're not trying to take me from you. its im the one whu wanna slack with them. & do you know i miss ihsan so much ? why i cant slack with them ? why ? tell me !

you say you slack with your new member because you dun have a friends whu understand you no more ? then , jaja is what ? not your friend. jaja is your true friend you know , and why must you go for your new member & leave jaja ? huh ? jaja slack with us coz he feel like to slack with us. and whenever he slack with us , i can see he enjoying his self. why must ONLY fullhouse you ask for slack , why cant we seat together , with alot of people & have fun ? anti social ? -.-

your full house friend never ever make ihsan all the ferst member for their life. they need to be fair right. they want to slack with us , and slack with you too. can you just give in huh ? if you think now the best way is to be alone , go on. i wanna see till when you can be like this. one day you're gonna regret , losing me , losing all of your friends. so please eh , dun just because we're apart now , you wanna ignore your friends. & "lagi pon mane korang lei pisah dgn liya.." what do you mean eh ? they cant seperate with me ? wtf !

like i said , if you hate them , dont ever think im gonna hate them too like you do. i stick with them all the way , can ? maybe , friends come and go too. but i love them like my own brothers love. cant you just understand ? & i never even tell you to leave your new member just for me & jaja okay ? i just tell you i hate your new member teams alright ? & you should knw the reason why. not that i ask you to leave them. go on & slack with them. dont be too stupid doing all this just because of me. & im sorry if i make you cry. takecare.